traveling home to ourselves at nautilus teachings

 

when i wake
tomorrow morning
i will be in
my own bed
snuggled deep
in my soft sheets
hopefully deeply dreaming
of a time
when life
settles…
the past night
was spent in a
4 star hotel with a
very comfortable bed
and attached was a sheet and blanket
that sounded and felt
like newspapers
delivering no warmth,
while the
weighted comforter
was piled upon the floor,
alone…
what is with these weighted top covers
hotels are using?
we hate them.
they hurt our aging bodies
and make us feel
claustrophobic
unable to sleep
plus there is no longer
and extra blanket for us
to warm our chilled,
aching bones…
i feel right now
as if i am a giant crashing wave
pounding the sandy shore
screaming
look at me
turn your eyes
still yourself
and just
look at me…
life has been a 24/7 mix
of having to
schedule this,
making time for
working fast to get this done,
only to find more things
wrong
and needing my attention…
every ounce of my body
aches
hurts
and when i stand
OMG
i have to do it very
slowly…
but still
tomorrow
i get to open my tired self
and gaze upon my
turquoise walls,
place my aching feet
upon the soft, silky wooden floor
take out the boys
and fall back
into
routine…
or
will
i?


life has not known normalcy
since before Irma.
to be exact…. for us
it was august 28th
the day the madness
stress
preparing
watching
praying
became a daily
integrated part of my day…
since then,
we have been tearing out
throwing away
and reinventing
our old life-
molding
and creating it
into a new
yet still the
same o, same o
ordinary
continuance
of
what we want
to give back
heal
help
color
to this world…
right now
after nearly 60 hours
of d and i
go, go, going
working
traveling
painting
celebrating
preparing
we are beat
we are 100%
very thankful
for the clean
eating and living we do
after being fed
processed, chemically infused
“nourishment”
which kept
both of us up all night
and leaving us
feeling
outside our bodies
frustrated
and a bit angry
at the fact that
no matter where we go
the food we are served
is full of preservatives
chemicals
and stuff that
f’s us up…
we eat clean
we eat real
pure
fresh…


so tonight
as we sit down
upon our soft sofa…
our bodies washed clean
of the days dust and grime
fresh yummy dinner scents
filling our home,
as the boys
rest peacefully
at our feet,
we take a ginormous
breath in
give thanks to God
begin to eat our dinner
as we both pause
slow our bites
and relish
the fact
that
together we have built
this healthy
wonderful
life
and
after
the weekend we had
decided
we must
make a plan
for traveling
just as precise
as we make our plans
for hurricane season
we must be as meticulous
with our sleep/food packing
as we are
an evacuation plan…
right now
the sun has set
the sky is dark
we are listening to our
recording of
cbs sunday morning
our bellies are happy
we are relaxed
and both of us
looking forward
to our evening tea
and slowly
unfurling our aching bones
into our own soft bed
dogs snoring at our feet
and then rising up
tomorrow morning
filled with gratitude
that God has chosen
to grace us with
another day
filled with the every day
rituals
we both cherish
knowing
these tiny lives we
partake in
are as important to us
as the putting on
and taking off of storm shutters
stocking up on water
and still drinking it months later
filling up our coolers
with our favorite food
each time we venture out,
all the while knowing,
we are gifted
the safety
of returning home
every day
one
at a time
only
and forever
by
God…

 

 

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